Hey guys, sorry its been a it. I promise I am working on several posts; most notably the results from my survey. But right now, I’m feeling really happy, and I don’t want to work on those posts.
Some of the major details I’d like to keep secret for awhile longer. I’m feeling incredible happy, and my soul is singing, and I don’t want to do anything that could potentially ruin this. But I am learning some really important things, and like all things, I wanted to share it with you.
I am learning, that in order to fully embrace what God is going to do in your life, you have to let go of certain expectations and plans you may place on Him.
Let me explain. I’ve been single for three-wish years. (I did date someone at the beginning of the year for two-ish months. And because of that short duration, I consider it simply a tiny blimp on my “single” timeline.). And I’m getting to the point in my life where I’m beginning to think about my future and getting married. So it would seem natural that I would be looking for a relationship, right?
Last year, when I applied for a summer position at a Christian camp, I thought for sure that I would meet the man of my dreams at the camp, and the rest would be history. I began to place that desire on God, and I expected Him to follow through with it. However, when I wasn’t offered a position, I thought God wasn’t keeping His promise. I think I was more hurt by the fact that I wasn’t going to meet Godly men, and the future I had built before me involving a Godly man from camp wasn’t going to happen, than I was with the actual rejection.
When this past fall semester started, I had the same mentality; The man I am supposed to meet will be in one of my classes. He wasn’t. Then spring semester started. Same thing. Then I started a new job. Still, I had the same mentality. And as of right now, the same result. I was beginning to think this illusive man would be at this college I’m transferring to in the fall.
But, well, all I’ll say, is sometimes, maybe, God has a different plan.
What I’m learning, is if I continue to place that expectation of meeting my Prince Charming at a certain place at a certain time on God, I may be missing out on His true plan for me. I need to stop trying to confine God to what I think He should do, and when I think He should do it. “I am not skilled to understand, what God has willed, what God has planned”, so why should I try to think I do?
I am also learning that nothing I do could ever screw up God’s plan for me. Ever. I am not that powerful.
I used to be so worried that the right guy would come along while I was in a relationship. That while I was with one guy, the “right” guy would catch my eye. I used to be so worried I would get stuck in between my timing and God’s timing. I used think I had the ability to royally screw up God’s plan for me. And I used to think anything I did in one relationship could directly affect my chances of meeting Mr. Right.
But I’m learning I am not a god, and therefore, I do not have the power, nor ability, to screw anything up. I do not have the power to override God’s plan for me. Nothing I do could ever cause God to change His mind about what He’s planned for me. Everything I have ever done, and every relationship I have ever been in, or will be in, fits perfectly into God’s design for my life. There is something so freeing in realizing that.
I am truly very happy. I woke upon this morning in a wonderful mood, and have pretty much been smiling ever since. And, I feel closer to God than I have in a long time.
Let go of any and all expectations you have of God, regarding your future, and embrace His plan. I promise you, it is beautiful and better than anything you could ever imagine.
Ciao for now,